Denial = No Insulin

For the next 6 months I did everything right - tested four times a day, ate three meals a day, stuck religiously to eating the right foods, giving the injections and I had no problems with coping, etc and just got on with it and realised that this was just the way things were going to be and that was ok.......I did all the crying and the why me when I was first diagnosed, etc. Seriously the only problems I had was the eating three meals a day I am not a regular eater so that was challenging, but I knew this is what I needed to do to keep healthy so I did, oh and I didn't like the finger pricks my fingers were getting very sore, especially as I could only use one hand.......but again I knew it was something that I had to do so I did it.

My three montly results were perfect and I mean they were in the fours and fives and I never had to adjust my insulin doses I was on 8 units of Novarapid three times a day and 8 units of protaphane at night - easy.......but then I started to become complacent where I skipped a meal here and there so therefore I didn't take the insulin and my levels were still fine so then I thought ok why don't I go a day with out taking any and see what happens nothing all was fine, and that day turned in to two, etc, etc....till i had gone nearly two months and I was coming up for my Endocrinologist appointment and was panicing thinking oh no what am I going to do they are going to kill me but my result was fine i was in the low 5's, and they said excellent you are stll honeymooning and I said yep and I am not taking any insulin and that did not go down to well but I explained my theory and they were fine but i must keep an eye on things.

I went for my latest check up in January and my test was 5.9 so slowly creeping up and they asked how things were gojng and I said fine, and i still keep to eating correctly etc, but I had to admit that over the last week that my levels had been slowly rising especially in the morning and the two hours after a meal......so I have been told to keep a closer eye on things and look out for symptoms and at the first sign of trouble to call them directly and they will sort things out for me.....

So as of now my levels are still slowly rising and I will have an occassional nasty 20 plus reading but then by the next day it is fine again so I am thinking this honeymoon time is slowly coming to an end and I will have to get over this denial thing and switch my mind back into the right mind set and appreciate that I have had a nice intermission, but there is going to be no more of them......SIGH......but if only..........